Maybe?

Well, tonight was my first date with Rob.

We have a lot in common.  He likes to travel. He was also married for 17 years, divorced 1.  Has 3 kids too.  Likes to ride bikes, workout and go to shows... oh likes to cook and I like to eat.  (ha.ha.)

He recently joined a gym he said to 'keep up with me'... ha.ha.  He is looking to lose a few and I was going to my spin classes bright and early in the am that week.

So, Monday night we planned to meet after work and eat, then he called me at work and said he had a surprise for me...
He picked me up at work tonight and as soon as I got in he told me there was a bottle of water for me in the door.  (awe, I know)  We drove around a local neighborhood called Mt. Adams.  I actually ran there when I did the Flying Pig marathon in 2011.  There is a beautiful view of the park.  We had time to kill so he filled me in on the details of my evening.  We stopped by Rookwood, which used to be a GIANT pottery factory that has exposed beams, huge kilns you can sit in, and some pretty dim lights.  It is a killer romantic atmosphere!  Wow.
We had 45 minutes only so we opted for appetizers and wine.  We had brusetta and country fried bacon. Yep.  The really did find a way to make it even more unhealthy!! lol.
We quickly made it out of there just in time to get to Playhouse in the Park to see Hank Williams Lost Highway.  It was a synopsis of Hank's life told by his Mom, Wife, Buddies and songs by Hank all rolled into one.
My Dad really enjoyed Hank Williams when I was a kid so many of those songs brought back memories.  I actually had a good time!

Rob is VERY affectionate.  Kind of 'nerdy' looking.  It was different, but nice. He opened all the doors for me and helped me put on my coat!
I have never had such an evening.  It really impressed me.

The only thing I didn't like was he likes to talk about himself.  I am not sure if that was nerves or normal... I will see.  He is about the same height as me, the shortest guy I have ever dated.    Maybe a bit taller,  he could loose 30 lbs, but has some pretty nice arms...

Definitely would like to see him again.  ;)

177.4

So, I gained this week.

Go Figure...

I came home a day early from my trip, since I couldn't hide in my room all day and my Mom made me feel like I was in the wrong for wanting to meet up with my friends.  I also was hurt how on Thanksgiving, it felt like the family got together to get the things my Dad cherished out of the house.  I had a hard time watching it go. My Dad loved that stuff and even though he can't use it anymore I just couldn't watch it happen.  It felt like they took the stuff and ran.   Jared really never seemed to talk to my Dad much.  Didn't bother to learn about any of the tools or machines he took before he knew he was going to get them.
Maybe it wouldn't bother me so much if my sister Jill actually came to visit my parents other then when requested.

Aaron left me yet another message today #3.  This time he called from his buddies phone so he got to leave a message.  I finally replied with "A. only loves me when he is drinking, he can leave me alone now please. Thanks."  Eventually he will leave me alone.  He said he is in Toledo with his buddy.

I managed to get 3 miles in at the gym.  I really hate those mirrors in the gym.  I have my mothers cellulite thighs... It is such a disappointment to walk to the machines know exactly how bad they look.  I try to hide them behind my towel and water bottle.  I hold them low enough to disguise them.

R., the guy that I met at my employee craft fair, wants to take me out on an actual date next week.  He doesn't have to go to New York next week.  He joined a gym and wants to lose 45 lbs.  He is way more driven than I am.  When he goes he spends HOURS there.  Treadmill, weights, rowing machine, elipitcal and biking.  I can't spend more than one hour there!  I hope he can keep it up... it is a good motivator for me.  But he is still hurt from his divorce... he will say things like how he misses doing things with someone (meaning spouse or girlfriend).  Every once in a while he will tell me how much his kids adore him, like he is needing to be petted or something.

I was doing a special project for some doctors at work and ran out of write out, I will have to get more tomorrow to finish the charts.  The have to be sent in by Friday for them.

Well, that is it... my life to date.

Home sick.

What a crazy emotional week for me....

Urgh.  I let go of watching my calories and just ate when I was hungry... I am supposed to weigh in tomorrow.

Aaron left me two voicemails and a text message.  After the first one, I felt better knowing I did not call him back.  He was blocked later that same night when he tried to call me again, so he sent me a text.  The second call came when my phone died as I was meeting a friend for dinner.

I was dreading meeting my family for Thanksgiving, since my sister J, was less than excited about me this year due to my divorce and my handling of the care of our parents.

I was looking forward to seeing some of my local friends.  I had lunch with one, Wine with another and dinner with another.  After meeting my friend for dinner I was locked out of the house by my Mom in order to make sure my Dad didn't wander out.  After suggesting that I could seal up the home when I get home, then she tells me that I was acting like a 'teenager', because I was visiting with my local friends each night. I wasn't even out late.  I was home by 10:30 at the latest.

 On Wednesday I was looking forward to meeting some friends at a bar for 80's night.  Shortly after arriving, I felt so alone.  The last place I wanted to be was there.  I wanted to hide.  I didn't want to go back to my parents house.  I wanted to go home.  To hide, to be truly alone.  Or at least alone with my kids.

Now.  I survived the meal with my family and now I get to sit around and do nothing tomorrow.  Maybe I will leave and head back early.  I really don't want to stay...urgh.

Brooklyn or Bust!

It is the night before the big holiday trip back to Wisconsin.  I have kid number 2 and 3 sitting here in the living room with tummies full of Burger King , watching short movies with characters from Shrek, Mega Mind and Monsters vs. Aliens with me right now.  Laundry in the dryer and my mind is spinning with things I may need to bring.

I was pretty excited to be down ANOTHER 3.4 lbs today.  Total so far is 5.8.  I was really surprised since I did a pretty sad job of picking bad choices last weekend.

Well, I am beat!
Time for bed!

For the Chub of it.

I've done it.

I am back to Fat Class.

Dropped the addict, Aaron.  HE is gone.  No longer lingering around.  Sober for 6 months and has fallen off the wagon.  I wish him the best.  Next, Onward!

I dropped 3.4 lbs the first week and as of Wednesday had another 3 gone.  Lets hope they are still gone tomorrow when I weigh in.

I've been doing something I never did before.  Texting boys.   There was Eric, the cop.  Jason the casino server, Russ the construction worker and now Rob the businessman.

This is new territory for me.  Eric randomly will text me from time to time... we never have met, talked about.  Same for Russ, we talked about meeting but never did.  I did meet Jason, but not exactly my type.  He is very opinionated.

I managed to get to spin class twice this week, bright and early in the morning.  It felt great to get moving again.  What a boost for your esteem!  If Rob is the real deal and will become my workout buddy I am excited!